Every experience God gives us, every person that He puts into our lives, is the perfect preparation for a future only He can see.
- Corrie Ten Boom

Friday, July 27, 2012


Everywhere I have ever lived has been called home, some of them still are, in a sense. I have a home in Kansas, a home in New York, and a home in Minnesota. They say home is where your heart is, or alternately, where you hang your hat. I'm not so sure about the hat thing, I don't tend to wear them, but I find my heart divided and I wonder why God can't let us settle someplace here on earth. I know that my home, really, truly, is not on this earth, but somewhere beyond here, in heaven. But I still wish, upon the same stars I have seen in every night sky, that we could be somewhere, nearly anywhere, for a long enough period of time to put down roots.

Monday, July 23, 2012


This was our Sunday School lesson this past week, for the 3rd and 4th graders I teach. It's one that a lot of adults struggle with, too. Some people will say that to forgive too soon, or too easily, or without being asked often means that the offending person won't learn anything from the event. Sometimes, that will probably happen, but most of the time, it doesn't. Why? Because most bad behavior is precipitated by wanting attention. At that point, they don't care whether it's good or bad attention, they just need someone to pay attention to them, to feel like they matter, that they exist. Sad, isn't it? That's not to say that is always the case, but it often is. Other bad behavior is an escape mechanism. My reality stinks, so I want to alter my perspective on it by using alcohol/drugs/sex/whatever to escape. Are there exceptions to these two things? Absolutely! But, the vast majority of bad behavior fits into one or both of those categories.

So, then, where and how does forgiveness come into it? Well, we know that we need to be forgiven, for all of the mistakes, mess ups, and sins we've committed. The Lord's prayer says, "Forgive us our debts/trespasses as we forgive our debtors/those who trespass against us." Ouch; forgive us as we forgive others. Sometimes, harboring hate towards someone else will eat at us, and make us feel like the one who messed up, and that's valid, because we then aren't following out God's will and we are creating a barrier between ourselves and God. 

Look for another blog post later this week, showing how that forgiving can turn a life around. :-) But, for now, I'll leave you this morning with a song from Tenth Avenue North entitled "Losing." 

Friday, July 20, 2012


My husband was watching Rocky IV tonight, for what had to be the hundreth time. In it, Adrian (Rocky's wife) at one point yells at Rocky, "You can't win!" I have to say, that's a horrible thing for any spouse to say to their mate. I've heard it from mine, well, not that I couldn't win, but that I couldn't do something that I want, have nearly always wanted to do: write. Professionally. I have been through a half dozen of his job changes through the past 10 years we have been married, most of them not his choice, and each of which brought us to a new state. We are even currently looking for the next job, the next new place. But, no matter what the circumstances have been, we have always had enough.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Love: defined

Our text this morning was Romans 12:9-13. Here it is from the Message: "Love from the center of who you are; don't fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle. Don't burn out; keep yourselves fueled and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don't quit in hard times; pray all the harder. Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality."

The Sunday School lessons this month that I am helping to teach are also on love. Last week we talked about the three Greek words for love: eros, phileo, and agape, as well as briefly about loving our enemies. This week it was about showing others love by putting them first. They both go along the same lines, yes?

So, what does it mean in today's society to truly love others? What does it look like? More importantly, how can I go about loving others in the way that Christ calls me to, even in this time of transition and turmoil for my husband and I?

There was a homeless couple outside the store I work at a couple of days last week, at first I thought there was only one person, but it turns out there were two. When I thought that there was only one, I was willing to share my lunch with them, but when I went out there were two, and I didn't feel I had enough for three, so I turned around and went back inside. When I got out of work that night, they were gone. Hopefully, someone with more means helped them out, but I can't guarantee that. I do wonder what I lost out on by not helping, though.

I also have to believe that part of the message that God is sending me today, through these lessons as well as other things that I have seen and heard today, is that I am not to give up. Things might be hard today, but there is work still to be done. While I don't know what or where our next mission field will be, I can rest assured that God is already at work there, preparing it for us, while He is also preparing us for it. :-)